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[nola_northstar]

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I knew I didn't want a normal life, but that doesn't mean I wanted all of this. Jean-Paul, Northstar. My "secret identity." How do I handle having two lives in my head?

... and how have I survived without my twin sister? She was my other life. Is she safe?
... and I am so in love with my husband, Jean-Paul's husband, but Seth is falling for another guy entirely.
... who is someone Jean-Paul knows better than I do.
... and is Kyle safe, and loved? I miss him. I don't know him, Seth has never met him. But god, I miss him.
... and this feels like being brainwashed, and dying, and searching for my sister, and watching people die.
... and this feels like acting.
... and this feels like loss.
... and this feels impossible.



Caleb
I'm sorry about what happened. I didn't want you to leave, but I was completely overwhelmed. And grieving, I think.


Well, life is a pit of hellfire.

Comments

Re: Seth

[nola_northstar]

I’d come and kiss you but I respect that you probably don’t want that happening in case she wakes up and gets a shock.

Re: Seth

[nola_havok]

I actually really want you to come kiss me anyway.

Re: Seth

[nola_northstar]

I’m going to be stuck in your doorway like my metaphor, aren’t I.

Re: Seth

[nola_havok]

You're going to have to learn to sneak past her room sooner or later, right?

Re: Seth

[nola_northstar]

You’re right, I might as well start now.